Hello, I doubt that anyone is going to see or read this, but anyway I just want to say something about me at first.
I’m a teenage girl who is struggling with eating disorder. Whether I eat everything what I see or nothing. I have gone through bulimia as well, but not in an “advanced level” if I can call it like that.
Three years ago I was really obsessed with being thin, I started to hate myself and my body even more than before and decided to go on a diet. At first I was trying to be healthy and exercise (bicycle only actually), but as soon as I started losing weight I thought it is not enough so I decided to stop eating. And when it was still not enough I started to vomit every evening. I lost 26 kg in 3 and a half moth. I started feeling very weak, couldnt do any exercises or go out,so I was bored at home. And when I’m bored I’m eating. And I started eating again and I was hating on me every time I even thought about food,but I couldnt stop. I started to gain weight again. In two years time I’m back at the start with my old weight. I was really depressed for about a year, I feel really insecure, I don’t feel comfortable with people and I’m isolating myself. I don’t want to live life like this, I want to be happy. I really love fashion,but my body stops me everytime I want to buy a dress or shorts. I need something to keep me motivated so I decided to post my everyday of diet on tumblr. So here I am. I will start today not tomorrow, because I don’t want to be remembered as the fat girl.